Sunday, September 25, 2005

clearer to me

i just got off the phone with corey...what is becoming my favorite morning ritual...its usually right when i wake up...but before kpp wakes up...and when kpp wakes up...he is in suuucch a great mood...talking and loving on me...so its soo nice...i stay on the phone alittle while longer...and kpp has reign over the apartment lol...i know he loves the fact that corey calls lololol.....

but anywho corey made something sooo clear to me with this phone call...
that my feelings are NOT more important than the truth"....WOW..no one has ever told me that before...
he always does this little thing...he says he is getting off the phone then he.........keeeeepppps talking...its like ive set myself up for him to get off the phone...prepared myself...got alittle sad with the fact that the phone call will end...and ill have to start my day without his guidance lol...and then.......HE KEEPS TALKING...so now i have to go through my steps again...so i tell him this...and he was like...awww...you are difficult..you know the phone call will end...

but i dont care about that...i still get alittle sad about it..its like telling someone that is greiving that their family member has "gone to a better place" hahaha..thats a bunch of shit...im still sad about it......

and he goes on to say...oops ill get in trouble for doing this..because he hates when you paraphrase his words but i have to right now...he goes on to say...that thats how he lives his life...thats how he "snaps back"...because he understands that truth is more important than his feelings...wow...i love him...or did i already say that lol....he teaches me sooo much...and i like that about our relationship...he probably doesnt think he does..buthe does...some days he says things that are soo profound..but then other days...i would rather change a dirty diaper than to talk to him hahaaha...(dont tell him i said that lol)..but even on those days...i love talking to him...

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