Thursday, December 22, 2005

i cant take this shit anymore!

wtf? MAN WHYYY??!!!....I CONTINUE TO SEE SHIT LIKE THIS WTF??!!! MAN K. COLE...WHY ARE YOU POSING WITH THIS LAME? you aint that cute..but damn this fool makes you look hooooott!!!! or equally as lame! lol which is it?...then this person has the nerve to be throwing up the westside? give me a damn break! ahahahahahahaha!!

I threw up in my mouth alittle bit! ewwwwwwwwwwwwwww....damn!!!!! i just looked at that picture again!

why do people continue to be over ignorant lol with their style...the acrylic fingernails but just on two fingers? keep your damn hands in your pockets fool!! give me a damn break man!! hahahaha WTF is this? a man or a woman??!!! ....

oh my goodness..my hostility is shining through today..i was going to try and control it.until i saw this damn picture!!!

DAMN! my people gotta do sooo much better than this shit lol...oh my goodness!! the fingernails?? whyy?? JUST FUGLY....(FOR YOU FOLKS THAT DONT KNOW..THAT MEANS FUCKING UGLY!)...

or should i say H.A.M. (hot ass mess!)...YEAH LETS JUST SAY...
HONEYBAKED H.A.M!

these are some pictures from that biggie release party from the other night...damn all these folks there..and MTA is acting a damn fool? how they get there? walk? hahah wtf? people will do anything for some hot music and some drink and smoke!

i donno but damn can someone say exploiting?? lol..at first it was puffy...we all kinda expected that fool to be out for the papa...but now this nicca big's momma? lol damn...i hope when i die and my moms is still alive..so that she can somehow exploit me to get that money...maybe that folder on my computer labeled private will do it for her hahaha lol

yeah check these pics out from the party... click if you want them bigger..




this nicca benzino lol?! why are you there! fat joe..you need to be home collecting money to give to big puns wife...babs? ummm where you at? can i hear a cd? i thought her and other dude from making of the band was gonna be like "bonnie and clyde" (puffs words not mine!) lol...

i wasnt going to say shit about big's momma but damn...i cant even stand to look at her anymore...but i guess if kpp was a famous rapper and i knew everyone loved him i would do it! NOOOOOT! be serious!

gimmie da loot! gimme da loot! hahahaha! damn i miss biggie

Tuesday, December 20, 2005

damn i hate people!!!

okay..i think i need to clear some things up about my blog... (now if you dont know what im talking about...then im not talking to you lol)

okay..i think my blog lately has been misunderstood by some folks..they seem to think ive been talking about them.... WTF?

if i havent said anything to you...I WASNT TALKING ABOUT YOU..
if i havent said i dont love you no mo'..THEN DAMN I LOVE YOU BOO! LOL...WE STILL PEOPLES! SHIT!
if i havent said you make me sick..JUST KNOW YOU ARE ON MY GOOD SIDE!
if i havent said im talking about you...JUST KNOW..IM NOT TALKING ABOUT YOU! GEEEEZZZ!!

im a poet..i write poetry..i write poems about love..i write poems about love lost...i write about my past present and future love...
i write about my friends..past and present...
i write about my situations...
i write about my sunshine...

damn man give me a break..stop writing shit on your blog about me...if you have something to say...tell me fool!!!...before i let "sho yah"..line yo ass up with the other COMPLAINING ASS biotches and slap the shit outta you for me!!!...stop with all the vague mentions of conversations we have had..YOU SUCK!..i was trying to be happy with you...but now i see...yo ass will never really be happy..no matter what i do...or dont do...no matter how many conversations i listen to...no matter how much attention i give you! damn..you suck!!!...get happy from within..and if im not the friend you need...drop me like a bad habit!..damn i hate people...(didnt i already say this shit today!!!)...i hate people!!!...

i cant make you happy...i cant be a better friend...i'm me..im who i am the first day you meet me..i will be who i am when this relationship is over! damn get a grip...i hate reading folks blogs and its some vague ass interpretation of something i said on my blog..and it doesnt have shit to do with you in the first place...

take my blog for what it is...my thoughts..my life...not something between me and you..unless i give yo punk ass a shout out!...cause 100% of the time..if ive written it on my blog...you heard it from me first...

so stop your drama...if i have beef with you..if i dont like you anymore..i will tell you...if i have an issue with you..shit i will let yo ass know! damn i hate yall biotches on these blogs!! they shouldnt have ever made this shit hahaha!!! yes they shouldve..so i dont have to cuss yo ass out today!! hhhaahaha...i can just type it on my blog! lol



okay truce? truce!..DAMN FREAK!
damn..why dont people realize that the grass aint greener on the other side...SHIIIITT!!!!

if you love someone stick with them..be patient...communicate what you want and need...especially if your mate is a good person...

why does everyone always think its greener??!!!!!??? I DONT!..but then again..who is weird like me...i always have stuck with what ive had.....especially when that shit is great!

so to all you complaining bitches (men and women! cause men can be bitches too!)...your new year's resolution needs to be this....

1. STOP FUCKING COMPLAINING ABOUT WHO YOU ARE WITH!

2. IF YOU DONT LIKE THEM...LEEEEAVVEEE!!!

3. IF THEY ARENT GOOD IN BED...STOP TELLING ME! LEAVE!

4. IF THEY DONT LOVE YOU THE WAY YOU NEED AND DESIRE TO BE LOVED..LEAVE!!

5. IF THEY WATCH TOO MUCH DAMN REALITY TV AND YOU WANT TO BE OUTSIDE..LEAVE!!

6. IF THEY HAVE FAKE NAILS AND BAD WEAVES..AND YOU THAT SHIT!! LEAAAVEEE!

7. IF HE/SHE IS A DEAD BEAT PARENT! LEAVE!...BECAUSE CHANCES ARE..IF YOU EVER HAVE A BABY TOGETHER! THEY WILL BE DEADBEATS!!

8. IF THEY TALK TOO DAMN MUCH..AND YOU WANT SIIILLLEEENNNCEE (LIKE MARTIN USED TO SAY)...LEAVE!!!!

9. IF THEY DONT COOK FOR YOU AND YOU WANT A HOME COOKED MEAL WHEN YOU GET HOME! LEAVE!

10. AND FINALLY! IF THEY ARENT LOVING YOU RIGHT...IF THEY DONT HOLD YOU RIGHT...IF THEY ARENT SEXING YOU RIGHT..IF THEY ARENT GIVING YOU ORAL LOVING (FOR MEN AND WOMEN) HAHAHA ...IF THEY ARENT HOLDING YOUR HAND AND KISSING YO ASS (AND YOU ON THAT LOVEY DOVEY SHIT)...PLEASE DO ME A FAVOR IN THE NEW YEAR....STOP CALLING ME COMPLAINING ABOUT IT!! LEAVE!!!!!!!



DAMN IM ANGRY TODAY HAHAHA BUT IM SICK OF MY FRIENDS CALLING ME TELLING ME ABOUT THEIR FUCKED UP REALTIONSHIPS BUT ARENT GOING ANNNYYYWHERE...BE HAPPY IN WHAT YOU HAVE...BE HAPPY THAT HE/SHE IS THERE...BE HAPPY..AND BE PATIENT..SO WHAT...IF HE DOESNT COOK FOR YOU..BUT HE LOVES YO ASS DOWN AND COMES HOME AT NIGHT WITH GREAT CONVERSATION..(FACE IT..HE ISNT A GOOD COOK!)...LOL..SO WHAT...IF SHE DOESNT LIKE SPORTS..BUT SHE COOKS THE HELL OUT OF SOME COLLARD GREENS AND CORNBREAD W SO WHEN THE GAME IS OVER..YALL CAN EAT!...(FACE IT...SHE AINT A SPORTS FAN LIKE ME! NICCA!)..

DAMN MAN! I SWEAR! SHUT THE FUCK UP!! IN THE NEW YEAR! QUIT THAT COMPLAINING SHIT!!!!!!

BEACUSE DAMN IF YOU HAVE SOMETHING GOOD..WORK AT IT...EVERYDAY AINT PEACHES AND CREAM...BE PATIENT..AND AFTER BEING PATIENT AND LOVING..AND SHIT STILL AINT GOING THE WAY YOU WANT IT...BE AN ADULT AND GET OUT OF THE RELATIONSHIP THE RIGHT WAY..NO CHEATING..NO LYING..JUST BOUNCE.....AND STOP CALLING ALL OVER GODS CRATION TELLING EVERYONE HOW FUCKED UP YOUR RELATIONSHIP IS!! CAUSE 9 TIMES OUT OF 10..HE/SHE AINT DOING WHAT YOU ANT BECAUSE OF YOU!...(DID YALL HEAR THAT? IF HE/SHE AINT GIVING IT..ITS BECAUSE YO ASS AINT GIVING IT..IF SHE DONT COOK...ITS PROBABLY BECAUSE SHE FEELS UNDER APPRECIATED..YO ASS NEVER CLEAN THE KITCHEN! OR SAY THANKS...IF HE DOESNT BUY YOU NICE THINGS...MAYBE ITS CAUSE YOU A GOLDIGGER AND HE KNOWS THE SHIT HAHAH...IF SHE DOESNT WEAR LINGERIE..MAYBE ITS BECAUSE ALL YOU DO IS SNATCH IT OFF OF HER ANYWAY..WHATS THE POINT REALLY..YOU DONT LOVE HER SLOW HOW YOU 'POSE TO HAHAHA (im soo grammatically challenged lol but hey im from Mississippi lol)...YEAH MAN DAMN..STOP COMPLAINING...

HAHAHA IM DOCTOR PHIL IN THIS PIECE! IM OUT!!!
Tuesday, December 13, 2005

forever alone in love

ive known for many years now that ive walked alone in this life..

but not until tonight was i forced to apprehend the truth as it continued to flee from me...

this truth collided with my fantasy that THIS love is everlasting and would always remain right beside me...

holding my hand ever so tightly...

im rejoicing tonight that i have been given the opportunity to multiply....

I never knew just how much i would need my sunshine....

to help me through this array of blacks and grays...

i knew that one day this would all come to past...

but i ducked and dodge the obvious...

and tonight after all has been said and done...

this has been my hearts ultimate calamity...

ive walked this road soooooooo long alone..and i never once thought id have to continue with MYSELF by my side.

im sorry i couldnt be the person you dreamed...

and im sorry after all my begging and pleading that you wont recognize just who i am...

and let our paths reconnect and encounter this special love again...

the truth has manifested itself soo painstakingly obvious to me...

i cant be your accomplice in this persevering task we call life...

im forever in your debt for keeping me abundantly whole at my darkest midnight hour..

thank you..

forever..

i am melancholy but i still say thank you....

forever was always something i said with ease...

because my love for you was never blindsided by obstacles...

or pushed aside with life's lessons...

but tonight i know forever is just that...

FOREVER ALONE IN LOVE......
Monday, December 12, 2005

what would you do?

Question??????????????
What do say? When an e-mail is sent to you by the only woman that you have EVER love for almost 10 years.

I'm giving you 5 months to straight whatever it is that you gots to get straight. Then I'm moving there and we getting married and having a baby I don't need you to agree or disagree. Because we been playing this game to long and you love me and I love you.

Now to the Fellas:
What do you do if you get this from the female that youve always loved?
Do you respond to this email?
Do you respond to the woman that you have talked to almost everyday for 10 years or do you just ignore the e-mail completely?

And Ladies:
Is this something that you would ever send to the man that you've loved almost 10 years?

This is really an important question that I need an answer to. So leave your comment or instant message me, if you the shy type.

so im looking at other blogs again..and come across this lol...its soo hilarious...


so i preface this blog..its from some chick who did the ultimate wrong thing to her mate...CHEAT!...so she emails him this email..he emails her his reply..BUT FORWARDS LIKE OVER 100 PEOPLE!!! HAHAHAHAHAH REEEEEEEEEEEAD!!!!! I WOULD SAY ONLY WHITE FOLKS..but i know some black chicks that would pull a stupid ass stunt like this lol


 


Brad,

It would be difficult for me to be any more miserable right now, I feel like the worst person ever. First, let me start by saying that I am truly truly sorry, and I hate myself for hurting you. Of all the people in the whole entire world, you were honestly the last person that I would ever want to wrong in any way. There is no excuse at all or anything that happened, so I won't even try other than to say all of us had WAY too much to drink, and I did a stupid thing. I can handle you being pissed at me, I absolutely deserve it, I can even handle the ugly words that were exchanged between us, what I can't handle is thinking that you see me as a different person.



It is weird, I feel like I just went through a horrible break up or something. The world looked funny yesterday, I couldn't crack a smile if you paid me, there are songs I can't listen to, and I just feel beyond crushed. I don't know if you meant everything you said to me, and I am hoping that you didn't. I know that I was wrong on many levels, but I am also hoping that this is something that we can deal with. I know it sounds totally crazy and stupid, but you have come to play such a significant role in my life, I can't imagine my days without you. It is totally strange and weird to say that, and you could say that my behavior didn't reflect that, and you would be correct. I hate feeling like you hate me, and I hate feeling like all of your friends think I am a terrible person, because I am not. I know there is nothing I can say or do to take back what happened, but I just want you to know that fighting with you was just about the worst thing I could have ever imagined. It was right up there with one of the ugliest nights of my life, and I would give anything in the world to rewind and fix it.



I am not sure if you will respond to this, part of me thinks that you won't. If not today, then maybe some other time. Also, thanks for getting my stuff together, although I think my sunglasses are still at your house, if you could keep your eyes peeled for them that would be great.



I can't even focus or work today, I can't eat, I seriously feel like it was an ugly break up, and I am hoping against hopes that it was not that and you are not done with me. Please don't cut me off, I really don't think I can handle that.



I am so sorry.



Elizabeth






Dear Elizabeth,



Thank you for your concern. I'll be sure to file it away under "L" for "Long-winded diatribes from drunken whores I couldn't care less about". You did a stupid thing huh? No...doing long division and forgetting to carry the one is "a stupid thing"; Mixing in a red sock with a load whites is "a stupid thing"; Blowing some guy in a bathroom for 45 minutes while I sit at the bar wondering if you're taking so long because you ate too much bran that morning isn't as much a "Stupid thing" as it is grounds for permanent removal from my social calendar.



To be honest, I'm not sure if it was more amusing that you went and degraded yourself in a public toilet not once but twice in a 2 hour span, or that you seemed to think that by saying "Well, I didn't F**k him" somehow gave you a clean slate. So forgive me if I couldn't care less if the world "looked funny" to you yesterday. Since your world revolves around blow dryers, golden retrievers, Prada Bags and Jelly Beans, I'm sure it must have been most unsettling to actually have to consider someone else's feelings for 24 hours straight.



The good news for you is that my friends don't think you're a terrible person, they just think you're the average run of the mill cum-guzzling blond who commands about as much respect as your average child porn collector. I could be wrong but, it's pretty hard to respect some B&T chick who comes out to spend the night at my place even though she's seeing someone else in New jersey and winds up tongue-bathing the taint of anyone who decides 30 minutes of droning commentary on Colin Farrell's new haircut is worth putting up with for a hand job in the men's room. The good thing about being a guy is that when I eventually bump into the young lad who finger-blasted you on top of a towel dispenser last Saturday, we'll have a shot and laugh our heads off about the time it happened.



By the way, for the amount of time you claim to spend in spin class you really must be doing something wrong to sport the thunder thighs you do. Watching you parade around my bedroom in a thong was a little like watching sea lions mate. Thought you might like to know.



PS. I BCC'd about 100 people on this email.

Talk to you never,



Brad
damn i think i just read the blog of the fucking year lol....i read this guys blog off and on alot...and today i read him describing what a sexy is to him..

so umm ive decided ill do the same....in the dicitionary sexy is

1. Arousing or tending to arouse sexual desire or interest.
2. Slang. Highly appealing or interesting; attractive:


to me...sexy is....

* when you lay your head in my lap and look up at me...and we communicate without word

* when i can cook for you...and YOU do the dishes...

* (now this one may be alittle confusing) when im walking down the isle of the grocery store and i stop in front of you...and you run into me...cause you acting like you didnt see me stop...just to feel my bootie lol...

* when i smell you on my jacket..because before i went to work..you hugged me tight...and all day i smell your love around me....oooooooooooh sexy..cause damn..you smell soo good!

* when i have on a low cut top and you look at me and say "put those up..those are for me" lol...hahaah sexxxxyyy!!! lol (that really happened to me..)

* when you come over with fresh new hair..lordie! thats soo sexy...like wow..you look sooo good!

* that night you came home early to find me in the bed reading..and you came right in..didnt disturb me...you just kissed me, laid down..and when i started to talk..you said...no baby finish reading "i dont want to disturb you"....and went to sleep...(see thats soo sexy..because you know i love you..you know i care...i know you love me...i know you care....and you are okay with me doing my own thang...you understand that reading makes me happy...so you gave me what i needed...those lips..and a "im going to bed baby...i love you"....and you went to sleep..did i say sexxxxy!!!)

* its when you know i have a child..yet you love him even more because he looks just like me lol......(now if this aint the sexiest thing...)

* (this is a better one)...when we were in the mall and someone said...your child is soo handsome....(eventhough he is MY child)...you just smiled kept walking (never mentioning that he wasnt ours....sexxxxxyy!!!)

* when we are riding down the street and you look over and say..."i love you" just because...but you dont get mad when i dont say it back...because shit we all know you got my heart...all i need to do is look at you and smile..cause that means waaay more than words...

* when you kiss me on my forehead cause im sick..you dont want to catch what i got..but you gotta be kissing me...yeah thats seeeexy lol...makes a sista feel extra good...

* oh yeah..when you cook for me..and take care of me..when im sick...(oooh thats soo sexy...makes me want to give you my germs and have sex right there...cause you already know when you get sick i am going to do the same for you...sooooo sexy!)

* when ive cooked something that i thought was soo good...(and it really wasnt)...you dont look at me twice while eating it...you say..."this isnt that good baby...but i love you"...ooh sexy! cause momma always trying some new receipe lol

* you know on that saturday when there is nothing to do....well you go in your "small" book collection..and we read together..you read to me..i read to you..

* when im shopping for clothes and you come in the "womans" store with me..and watch me try on clothes...thats sooo sexy..cause who cares about those other women...you are with me...

* when you are shopping for yourself..but you want me to go...because you want my opinion on what looks good on you...oooooooh thats soo sexy...

* its really sexy..if i come home and you are there laying in bed waiting for me...ooh thats really sexy..cause i know what may happen...

* when i can just put my head on your shoulder cause ive had a bad day..and you dont try and fix it..you just let me talk...tell me "you got me" thats sooo sexy

* when i check my messages....and all i hear is..."i love you"..and you hang up...because what more needs to be said....man damn..thats sooo sexy....

* oooh sexy is when you in the bathroom..and you just gotta talk to me...so you open the door because you didnt want to be alone..hahaa...(yeah thats nasty but thats when you know you love someone)

* i said me cooking for someone is really sexy...but when you come in the kitchen and say "babe what do you need me to do" yeah that shit is ultra sexy...cause yeah im cooking..(but i think i smell the bread burning! lol)

* its when we are laying in bed together..and you want me on you...you want my hands on you..you want my body on you...and when i fell like i may crush you lol cause ima big girl..you say......"i got you.." (now didnt i say i was a big girl....so if you say this..you better have me lol)

* sexy is when i have noooo money..and neither do you...yet we still find a way to be happy...playing uno! or some board game lol..thats soo sexy...and boring lol

* sexy is when....im scared at home alone..and you call me..to make sure im okay..thats not only sexy..but its soo nice to know that you love me...

* its that night i came home late from work...and you were there waiting for me..with dinner....(eventhough your dinner consist of french fries and a hot pocket!) thats soo sexy!

* oh yeah..when i walked out without giving you a kiss and you call me or text me..and say...you didnt kiss me today..that means i need extras when i see you later! lol seeeesxxxxyyyyy!!!

* and finally...when i lay in the bed..and you lay right beside me..and tell me your fears...your dreams...and how you want me to be there through them all..yes lord..now thats sexy!!!!




yeah i know..this is soo nice...but most of it has never happened to me...but the stuff that has..i think its soo sexy....i think its sooo nice..the hot pocket and french fry dinner thing...i made that up..but thats something yall would do lol..say i made you dinner baby! lol and its a damn hot pocket and fries lol....but shit thats sexy..cause i couldve come home..and had an air sandwich! lol....

so yeah someone who is sexy all over...and who appreciates me..and in turn i will appreciate them..and give them that sexy side of me..that i dont show anyone...yeah thats sooooo sexy lol...damn if i say sexy one more freaking time lol...

night