so my friend says to me today!!!

YOU NEED A FATHER FOR YOUR CHILD!!!!!

what the fuck?? i cant believe some people...some men...some men think if the father of your child doesnt live with you guys...that he isnt a good dad...or the fact that you arent married...that the father of your child cant love you and the child....damn i hate men!!! i hatteeee!!!!! men!!! hahahaa!!! (well some men!) lol...im almost speaking from a hysterical state of mind....because i cant believe he said this to us tonight...well us..me and my girlfriend....i was doing good fine at home..me and my friend "e" and he pops his happy ass up over here...well not over here...he said he was in the neighborhood and like a fool i said...oh well come on over lol..mainly because i havent seen him in a couple of weeks...and you know we are friends and all...or at least thats what i thought...damn whyyyy did i tell that fool to come over???!!!!....yes im cussing alot tonight...damn...i hate men!...

well he comes over...and me and "e" are talking about how she is in love...and how she thinks she has found the perfect person....well he asks me...where do i stand on finding a man lol....hahahahaahaha....what the fuck?? why am i friend with this fool?? i dont know...well he asks me...and i said...im cool on that...im happy where i am...just me and my son...well he continues to say...that my son is getting older and he needs a father...and i should just pick someone and stop being sooo picky...(because we talked about me being picky one night over the phone...and i said i think thats my problem...but i wont settle for anyone anymore because i have a son now)......because if i dont hurry he will be one of these little thugs out here on the street...wearing a white tee!....and a man will be able to set him straight before he gets too out of control...because women dont know how to raise a man...yall dont do a good job! (coming from a man who only had a single mother!!)....wellllll....i got "THAT LOOK" on my face...(hell naw not that look!...not the i think im cute look...or the one everyone says i do...naw none of those!!...i got THAT LOOK!!)....like "NEGRO PLEASE!! GO FUCK YOURSELF LOOK!!!" LOL....

so i stood up...and he looked really scared...but i went straight to the door and opened it!!...and said..."BYE! FOOL!!!!!"....

DAMN!!!...why do people say dumb shit??...women dont do a good job raising their kids?? women cant raise men?? well if thats the case...why dont men stand up and be there for their kids??...and damn my son has a father....no we dont all live together...but wtf?? is that a crime...noooo thats not how i wanted it to be...but wtf?? have i committed some crime?? did that fool really say that shit to me?? will i ever talk to him again...probably not...should i understand his pain and let it all go?? HELL NAW!! i dont care how fucked up your childhood was...but i want everything for my son...i want the best for him....so is the best when both parents live in the same home with their child?? thats the most logical...but after you cant have that...you move on to love...you move on and love your child and make sure his father understands you want the best for him...you make sure that dad knows that he should be the most important thing to the both of you...because in the end thats all you can do...and you pray and hope that dad loves him just as much as you...and when things dont go like they should...you love even harder....you make sure you do what you can to make your child feel loved...you make sure you discipline like you should...you make sure YOU do what you can when you can...because DAMN...what else can you really do??

damn i hate people...i shouldnt have said men earlier...i just hate when people dont understand...i hate when people dont love...and i truly hate when someone makes some bullshit assumption about my life....wow...i was soo pissed off earlier...still am alittle bit...but i have to let it go...let it be...but man i had to blog about that lol...


ps...yeah...we arent friends anymore...we have been friends since i found out i was pregnant...we used to work together...but now!! hell naw...that freak could never call me again...and i wouldnt loose a wink of sleep over it...i should send him the link to my blog...but that would be just like a scorp! MEAN...and im trying not to be mean soo much lol...hahaha DAMN ITS HARD!!!

pss...im sorry for all the curse words...i really am!!!

2 comments:

ray ray said...

you're cute when you're mad. I would give you advice but you seem to have it figured out. It's ridiculous to think that someone can just go out and settle for somebody just because they're a single parent. If you wanted to settle you'd have stayed with the first guy seems like.

happy mom's day.

msLuuvely said...

im cute lol..thanks...naw i dont have it figured out..but i do know that i want whats best for my son....and settling isnt it...

thank you for your comments!! and thanks for the mothers day shout out :)))) its appreciated!