mississippi...

so im going to mississippi tomorrow...a place i havent been in a while...well i went there last summer but before that...man soooooooo long....i know this time it will be different...alot of old friends will come to my grandmother's house...visiting..sharing...cooking...

and im just sitting here thinking...how fun that will be (hoooray hooorrayy...yepee! :( SIKE!)

its kinda funny because when i talk to my sisters or my mom i dont seem as sad as them...and im just wondering tonight is that mean?...should i be alittle bit more hurt?...alittle bit more sad?...i donno...

i guess when we get down to mississippi things may be alittle different...but right now...i dont really feel much...much sadness that is...

its really weird...i feel really good...and happy...but not sad...and im just wondering..is this an emotion that lots of people feel.......