Thursday, September 29, 2005

tonight my son did.....

its always astonishing to me when my son either: figures out something...learns something new...or speaks some new word....

well tonight..it was "his shadow".....its funny because we always watch this dvd..."bear and the big blue house"....well on the show there is this character named..."SHADOW".....he loves her....she is just a shadow on the wall (i've always said my son would love the simple things in life..)...he laughs and screams when i pull out the dvd........he starts to scream out..."SHADOW!!! SHADOW!!!"....so tonight was kind of odd lol....he saw his own shadow...and even played with it for a short time...then he started to whine...almost cry...and for like a half a second i wondered why????...but then I HAD IT!?.....HE WAS SCARED!!!!....i couldnt believe it...i almost wanted to show him his shadow again..so i could understand his fear...wtf?...he was just playing with the damn thing...and now he is petrified?! hahahaa....that shit was insane ...

i shouldnt think that this is soo amusing......but i do...i think its comical because he has become soooo "self-sufficient" lately (well as independent as a french speaking, dirty diaper wearing, french fry eating 19 month old can be lol)...lol...i almost felt good because he needed me...he needed me to pick him up...shelter him from "his shadow", his new fear....it just shows me that he isnt done with me yet....i feel good...eventhough he was scared lol...i feel needed...

its something about my little "sweets (what i call him)" growing up...i feel a little melancholy when i see him growing because i feel left out in some way.........yet on the other hand...i feel sooo full....full of pride...love...hope....i fell...like a mother.....i feel normal...because every proficient and loving mother has had these feelings...

wow...my son..he's growing up...yet he is only 19 months...but everyday he is acquiring all this knowledge to become.....this wonderful human being....i cant wait to see him at 4 :) lol

i love my sweets...i think ill add that as my signature on my email...haha...thats cute...someone will probably think im hungry and offer me a snickers bar hahahaa...oh well...

i love my sweets (kpp)...he is MARVELOUS!

1 comments:

minXXX said...

Wow, being a mom is really special...you know what?? I think I may be a momma soon, still not sure yet, but I might be... I am so scared and happy at the same time. Keep in check mamma..and kisses to that bundle of joy of yours :)