havent been here...

wow...i havent been writing in a while...i guess because i havent had much to say...havent had much going on...been really tired....havent been getting much sleep...i keep having the same basic dream.....and its kinda scary...so ive been staying up most nights...ive always been a scary person lol...like i hate living alone...it has taken me a looooong time to get "used" to this apartment...the only good thing about the building is the fact that i know but dont really know the people...like if something happened they would help me out...but i cant say i know much about them or their families....

but anyway...overall during the day lol things are good...my son is great...he is walking allllll over the place now!!! i enjoy him sooo much...he IS the best thing ever lol....of course i have pictures lol....






and then its this thing he does with his puppy...the story behind the puppy is.....



i bought the puppy when i was pregnant...i knew i would have kpp sleep in the same bed as me when he was first born soooo...i bought the puppy to "practice" lol...well the first night the puppy slept with me...i woke up the next morning and the puppy was on the floor behind the bed hahahaa!! i was sooo heartbroken...saying "im going ot be the worst mother ever!!" well needless to say...a baby and a stuffed puppy are tooooottally different lol...but anyway...when my son was born i gave him the puppy...and he has slept with this thing since day one....its soo crazy...if that puppy is not around when he is trying to go to sleep he is really cranky...and its really funny (i guess you have to be there lol) if i show him the puppy he instantly sticks his fingers in his mouth and lays down...so thus the pics of him and the puppy...

okay im babblin now...so im going to fix some breakfast and chill out...

oh yeah...still no job lol...im loooooving it!!! (mcdonalds!)

ps...its my brothers birthday today..i havent seen him in over a year...i hope all is well...