i want it....

that jones i got...man...i cant hold out any longer...its driving me crazy...

two friends (guys) have already told me to pursue it...but i dont know if i can...the rejection part...damn...

i should let it go really...its old news...its in the past...but i cant let it go...

what if i just said...

"i love you..can we be together??"

what do you think would happen?? what do you think they would say??...what if i saw them i just kissed them???...what would happen??....man ive miss the touch??.....i mean reeeeally missed the touch!...

its none like it..its kinda weird...because this touch is different...its special...and i think thats why i cant get this out of my mind..

all this time!!!! and i stil have a jones...what the fuck!!!!

i hate my life some days...

why cant they just knock on my door say exactly what i want to hear.....but they havent...

so now im sitting here typing on this blog...wondering...if i go there with them...would they say "yes..."

(yes to just me...)