its always weird to read things from my past...i was reading some letters last night that my ex wrote to me...and they were sooo sweet...then i looked in my bedside table and read these cards that i received when i was down in mississippi last summer...it was soo nice to come home to some sweet cards...awwww..
well i was just thinking how life is just weird..and in its weirdness i sit back and not say much or say waaaay tooooo much lol..
so this morning i woke up about 4 or so...i was about to get up but decided i would write in my journal...instead of writing i turned back the pages to last spring...i was soo overjoyed with my son...(still am)...how he was growning and getting sooo big...and how i'd meet this new friend...lol...its sooo funny...how i talked about the friend...i'd always heard that people enter your life for a purpose and or season..but never really understood why her....but when i read back...i see why now...i understand why now...its crazy that when i look back on our relationship...the very first thing i can remember is "finding nemo" hahahaha...thats funny...and its sooo silly because kpp looooves that movie...he was in my stomach when i received it for a birthday gift...and now he walks around like a little man...but anyway...its just funny..how with the seasons our friendship evolved and changed...
and its soooo super ironic that after getting out of bed to read her blog this morning...i find that she was reading mine...even more weird...but man when i read her blog im soo happy for her...i mean seriously happy for her...i always think of jill scott's song when i think of her...but im happy that she has found love...and happy that she seems to be really happy...love is sooo wonderful...love is the best part of life to me...not just the lovers love...but love in general...its sooo refreshing to know that your family and friends love you...and its even more refreshing to know that someone special cares and loves you even more...and as i read her page...i see how much she is beginning to love again...and it makes me happy....but you know...its even more crazy and weird how she talks about me in her page "her situation" hahahaa....only a taurus would call me "a situation" hahah lol....shit only she would call me a "situation" lol...at first i thought it to be belittling but as i read...it was to make light of us....its silly kinda...but i guess its what she must do.....i was just reading and it seems like im the bad taste in her mouth...and its kinda sad but nothing i can really say or do about it...ill continue to be "the situation"...and i hope that her new found happiness is just that...happy...its soo weird to read about her life...how strong she is...and when i think back...i cant remember her being that strong..but i like it..its nice to read.....its weird how i always catch people at the wrong time in their life (ie when they have broken up with someone lol)...and when i say something to them..they get upset and or tense...but maybe its for a reason...maybe when i enter people's lives its for a purpose as well...who knows.....life is weird...i think that should be my new moto...
here is to one of the most daring...exciting...amorous...introspective...relationships ive had in a very very long time :)....love you always.... :)
ps...i hope this one...this one is better...more loving...more caring...and just more...just more everything...everything you've ever wanted...you deserve it!!!!... ;)
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