Monday, March 28, 2005

ok...should i or shouldnt i?

i was reading my friends blog tonight...well i still consider her a friend (in my heart) but thats a whole other story...but i was reading and man i wish we were close again...i miss her....she kinda seems out of sorts...im kinda contemplating on calling her...when i was reading her blog it made me want to protect her...she just seemed to be going through alot...i donno...would that be a bad move? i donno...but i was the one who broke off the relationship...and then after the friendship was over...i think maybe i called or texted...and at that point...i said talking probably wouldnt be a good idea...or maybe she said it...but who knows...it was kinda sorta said...but i donno..should i just forget about all that and just call her...i hope she is doing okay.....and i did something i probably shouldnt have done...i let her know i was reading her blog lol...i made a comment on it...she will probably hate me for it..or even delete it...but oh well..if i got to her page and see its been deleted i wont call her...who knows...maybe i should...i find it refreshing to hear from old people....lol...or am i just saying that because i want to talk to her lol...who knows...im a weirdo... i think it would be kinda weird to talk to her...i do miss her...however...she would probably hang up in my face...should i?? or shouldnt i?? i still know her number lol...nooooooooooooooooooo leave it alone....or no?....dont leave it alone?? i wonder is she mad with me? who knows...i wonder on top of everything thats going on with her...would she even want to hear from me after all this time...?? man this is a weird blog...i shouldnt be bloggin about it...but i guess i should...just to get it out of my system...oh well...ill sleep on it...or ill call her at 2am lol...and wake her up...im always up at that hour anyway...ok im going to bed...night :)

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