Tuesday, February 01, 2005

time has truly flown by

...WELL..ITS ALMOST HERE!!!...count down...6 more days...

TIL MY SON IS 1!!!

it honestly seemed like a few months ago that i had him...but man its been almost a year...and in this year...wow things in my life have changed sooo much...

just my attitude of only me...now its never only me...even when kpp is gone with dad...i think about him..what he is doing...where they are..did he eat..did he sleep...everything lol...i can count on one hand the times that ive shopped just gone in a store and shopped for myself...and the funny thing its all been in the last 3 months...before i only shopped for him...when i went to a store i made sure he had something in the bag...its crazy...life is sooo crazy...just my entire thought process now that he is here...

i wake up every single morning thankful and grateful..that GOD gave me such a great kid...you know when people say that i always say..yeah right...you dont pray every day...you dont say thank you to GOD every single day...and i now know that its true...when you are sooo honored for something HE has given you...you cant help but to be grateful...

i tell my friends all the time that kpp doesnt belong to me...im just his escort in this life...and since he has been trying to walk for about 2 weeks now...i truly believe it...its sooo great...just how he wants to be his own person...just an individual...he pulls away and wants to explore the apartment...especially the things i dont want him to touch...i learned a while back that if i dont say no...he will eventually leave it alone...and not be soooo intrigued by it...

or if i dont say anything at all...he will learn that its not a toy...kinda like my radiator heaters lol....
everyone kept saying...you have to rearrange the place for him...uuummm..noooooo...he touched this thing...ONE TIME!!...and has never touched it again lol..its not really funny but i guess i laugh because...yeah he is only 10 months or even almost 12 months but he is super smart...and he knows alot...and i just want him to learn as much as he can on his own...so when i do try and tell him something...HE WILL LISTEN...lol unlike i did as a child...

my mother and father seemed to always tell me nooooo...and stooooop...and it just made me want to explore it when they werent looking...yeah i guess im one of these new generation moms lol...i guess...thats a compliment :)

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