Sunday, March 27, 2005

ooooooooooh mannn!!!

my son got his hair cut! but i'll have to wait to take a picture of him later....dad didnt take the pics while it was going on...and maaaannn...with all that was happening i forgot to get some hair...you know the little cuttings...awwww i feel awful...well...there will be more haircuts...but man...thats something you are suppose to keep and cherish..and i was suppose to put it in his little book...maybe ill just cut alittle piece of hair when he gets home...lol...

and man...its easter and man he (kpp) is gone...and man im sooo bored...i think im getting depressed...seems like every year around easter i get depressed...for good reason (that i dont want to get into because then ill get all these pitty emails lol)...but this year seems to be alittle weird...im alittle scared to let kpp out of my site...but he has to go with dad today...i thought about having him spending the day with me...but that wouldnt have been fair....dad wouldve thought i was mean or way too overprotective...or thought i was a bitch or something....but i always want our times with kpp to be fair..and i always want him to know his dads family....and keeping him tucked under me wont help this fear....so needless to say..HE IS GONE!...and im alittle sad...when they dropped me off at home... i got out of the truck thinking maybe i should say something...but i didnt...i just let them have their time together...i wont regret it....i know dad loves the baby boy...and will protect him and keep him from harm or danger...but i just cant help but be alittle sad and afraid....(ill have plenty to talk about this monday on the couch lol)...but then again when i think about it....wow...i did pretty good...i only cried for like 2 minutes lol on the way up the stairs...and then i only texted dad once to let him know to keep the baby safe...and then i tried to do something else...BLOG...to keep my mind off of it...and maybe ill call some friends to hang or something...or maybe ill go get in bed...lol...i had the worse sleep last night...because of these two dreams i had...(ill blog about that later on) lol...but yeah naps are always good!....yeah i think thats my new moto for today...(haha lol my motos are always changing!)....okay NO!..i wont sleep...im going to clean alittle and call some friends to hang out...yeah thats what ill do! lol...see just had to think it through.....wow...im suuuch a dork!

oh yeah...

happy easter!!

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