rainy today

hey...i told myself...i should at least write in my blog once a week...i forgot about it yesterday...well lets see...whats been going on in my life...LOL NOTHING!! LOL....i feel really good about life...i heard my son cry momma the other day lol...that was like whoa...i think he was just saying nana...lol..oh well..i hear what i want!! Ive been keeping in contact with my cousin...which is really cool...ive missed talking to her...you know the one...the one that "bear" loves...yeah her...

welllllll...umm...ive been talking to my friend derek more...he is soo sweet to me...just one of the greatest people i know...we are always talking...but seems like lately...we have been really getting to the root of things...i help him...he helps me...he was telling me about his girl blowing up because one of his "girl" friends called their place...i had to be honest with him...ive done the same thing...i cant stand when women do that...lol...im jealous though lol...

man im in such a great mood...eventhough its soo dark outside...im making the best of it...

dad picks up kpp today...so i have alittle 'me' time...which some days i love...so i can sleep...but other days...man i miss him sooo much...oh well...everyone says i will love this 'me' time oh well...i cant wait...

and yeah i was looking at him last night...once he threw his bottle and shuffled around and got settled and went to sleep....wow this is my son...this big boy...grew inside me for months..and now look at him...i remember when he was just a thought...i love him sooo much...i cant wait to see him in a year...two years...even 10 years from now...its such a joy to escort him along his life's path right now...i love it...